Gimmie the mic
is this thing on?"
There is a certain freedom that comes with not giving a fuck what anyone thinks. I'm not anonymous. Nothing I do is a secret. My opinions are mine and they seem to conflict with many others which is nothing new. No topic is outta reach and no thought is untypeable. All those broken hands and days lost in a cell with people on a fast track to nowhere paid off. The Dope, the drama..it all was fuel for "storytellin'" at a future date on a medium (blogging) I had never even heard of till a few years ago. Started reading and was totally blown away ....at how fucking lame it was. You gotta "live" it before you write about it. I read THIS and just about puked in my mouth...this isn't a gag post...totally serious. He was a popular blogger.
It was SO fucking bad.
(all you peekers...your visit counts yo!!...you can withhold your comment cuz your stupid or you don't wanna show the love...but I get the hit.....yeah...I get to keep that you Castle visiting dickheads. You got no balls. You got little comments).
|30,000+ last month and groooowing|
So easy it's ....
I definitely couldn't build a community using just anyone. 2 year ALT/JET teachers don't seem to lose their rose tinted glasses until just b4 they leave. Just when they are being honest with themselves....they are off! I looked for sites where the blogger considered the comments an interactive forum and regardless of how dissimilar we are I gave investigative probes by leaving comments on their site. (A lot ignored me or politely responded..THEN...ignored me) Having THEM on MY blogroll, regardless of how big or how big others think they are is an utter waste of time. I also discovered that people dissimilar to me were more likely to leave long thoughtful responses or rebuttals. My AVG comment length is 344 characters. That's not ("Hey looks like fun..nice post) (28) I am REALLY proud of that and appreciative cuz that takes time.
|Child porn...inspiring deep thought.|
Pain 4 Gain
Talking about the dark invites it back into your life and even after you hit the "publish" button it stays with you. The rage. People can look or look and comment and then move along and sometimes they didn't even get it or they left some generic fucking comment that proves they missed the point. (as I type this I just received a generic comment on Child Porn...?1..)
Loco did a post where he took the time to host and highlight 24 sites...and as I type this 3 days later he has 30 comments including his responses...tha fuck? I left comments on most of the 24 entries cuz that's the point...cross pollination...exposure. I got 2 comments....2....from 24 other sites. One guy who's site I commented on made me a Twitter friend and never even read my entry?? Dude...I hardly use Twitter....thanks for the meaningless jesture...please delete because my posts are not for people like you. Ya'll a buncha scum. You shoulda been in it and on it and showed some fucking respect to a person who spent his time trying to draw traffic to you and himself. I've gotten less visits than there is entries in that post. Buncha fucking dicks. Show some class..(Chris tellin us about class??) Yeah, ouch,...I respond to EVERY comment left at my site and EVERY post made by the members on my blogroll unless it's Tumblr and that just moves to fast but I always..ALWAYS return the love. Maybe THAT's why I get so much?...Ya think??
Most of your blogs suck...you suck at blogging itself and that's fine with you.... You can go show SOME FUCKING RESPECT now...but I know and Lo knows you needed to be told like kids to behave like the adults your supposed to be.
**If your on my Blogroll then this post's negative points are not 4 you. Your the reason I get to laugh at the shit sites...this is NOT 4 you girls and guys**
Mothers are probably the busiest humans on Earth and yet they make the best bloggers. Managing time is an art they perfect quickly so the next time you chalk up your half assedness to time remember that most do more with less....
I need feedback...I'm fucking talking to you people. I'm telling you shit...I wanna hear what the fuck people think.
My style...my style!!
Multiple fonts, colors and animated gifs are my trademarks. I started doing that for self control issues (I got wicked A.D.H.D.....apparently?) I can hardly keep thoughts long enough to write em' down so I need to have some colors and the gifs make me...watch em' again and again like some kinda short film...that can't be a good sign. My attention span for posting has been whittled down to needing fixes within the post editor or I just say fuck it....lotta draft posts have never seen the light cuz I lost interest or changed my thought midway through the process.
I believed that a site built around it's blogroll would be the surest way to have conversations below my posts that exceeded the volume and quality of the post itself. Over time I can learn about and follow them and my comments will be better cuz I've been around..not lurking...engaging regardless of my schedule or the simplicity of the post cuz that's what getting to know someone is about. You can't just drop in when it's good for you and the topic fits just right. That ain't how any relationship deeper than a puddle works. I wanna be heard and I need to get a response...I'm fucking human. Everyone on my roll will never do a post that doesn't get a response. They know that by now. I have deleted several blogs along the way cuz they don't respond or they never post. I'm fittin' to delete a couple soon. Can't talk with people who aren't even listening.
My site is a "proof of concept" site that reaffirms the notion that you don't need anything more than a "re pore" with a number of people who see the blogging thing in the same way. I have been swearing and yelling and calling out sites by names and all kinds of stuff that would seem to be a death nail for a site but....it just got bigger and bigger.
Ya'll can stop commenting now if you think it's denying me some...something...but that would be like installing an expensive burglar alarm AFTER you've been robbed. It's too late. I already got what I wanted and proved a point.
I really don't use it. The "flyjin" bullshit really turned me off permanently to that. Since when was being cautious a sign of weakness? All you hard core "realjin" or whatever the fuck you call yourselves are a joke. This will never be your home country and if you wanted it to be your in the middle of an identity crisis. The J-Jacket will never fit so stop trying it on. I stayed because I'm down south but if any of you fuckers ever threw some name at me cuz I don't trust a very unstable Governments words....I woulda beat your ass.
So Twitting my post or having others show that love ( I do the same)..easy and ..well..easy but beyond that, utterly useless as a traffic tool for a blog. How many Twitter friends you got? How many comments you get from that group?....well then why even associate the 2 if they are not related? WASTE OF FUCKING TIME.
I almost assaulted someone over a typical FB event and decided it wasn't worth the stress. As a blogging tool? How much do you expect people to pay attention to what you got to say? As a separate way to stay in touch?...not for me but I get it. Putting a badge on your site showing the amount of friends you got and not being dismayed that almost none comment on your site? Why should they when they are already chatting with you at another place? If anyone up till this point has thought I'm bragging your wrong...I'm rubbing the reality into your fucking face. Those stats are THIS SITES stats. Not another media platforms stats which have almost nothing to do with the blog itself.
For Raw Like Sushi, I hope that grows but I realized today that it's about as productive as Twitter and Facebook if interacting with your readers is your goal. To build a following sure, to get them to engage the topic from their reader is an extra click more than being right on the site. You can consider every extra click a reader has to do to comment on your site a shot in your own foot.
While researching Loco's 1st 6 months for comparison I realized again how ironic it is that when the metal is hottest and the pain the harshest...there is hardly anyone there to read it. You scream so loud to reach the crowd that...by the time they step closer...you've lost your voice. People come later when you learn to tame your demons just a little but by then...so much has been missed, so much has been released, rethought, reconsidered.
Challenging Loco was never a conscious thing. Infact..the "tough love" thing annoyed me a lot. Having Loco as a regular woulda been nice. But for a good while...that wasn't gonna happen so I moved on and just started throwing verbal tantrums (being me) and calling out other bloggers and their sites by name. I sure as fuck didn't run up on 100,000 quick by being a nice guy. If I had bit my tongue there would be some other regular commenters still here but they got thin skins and their sites suck anyways so fuck it and fuck them.
|Fuck you (you know who ya'll are)|
Loco (comments by months)
Oct08 - 92 Nov08 - 152 Dec08 - 194 Jan09 - 80 Feb09 - 176 Mar09 - 176
Jan11 - 122 Feb11 - 249 Mar11 - 355 Apr11 - 350 May11 - 398 Jun11 - 753
For a bit more perspective. Tofugu which is a very famous site, had 426 comments in June. They also have 6,000 Facebook "likes" and have 7559 Twitter "followers". I got 753 comments in June and have never been liked on Facebook (that I'm aware) and maybe 28 Twitter followers. It's not a bad site. I'd rip it but I got no reason. I'm pointing out how some sites with visitor counts over a million (gotta be) and damn near 8,000 Twitter followers don't seem to get much from it. Not what you'd imagine anyway.
I just realized 7/4/11 6:05pm that Intense debate is only counting other peoples comments and not my responses...I thought I had 1140 v.s. 914 but that made no sense?? I gotta be havin' more if I got 753 in June alone?? NOW I understand how it works (Intense debate).
And your point is what exactly??
Loco is a greater writer than me ....that's one of those "it goes without saying" type things but I'll be clear so no one thinks i got my head in the clouds.
His writing skills are not rivaled that I know of and I've looked around. Will has the potential to be a phenom if he "releases" and stops caring. But on pure writing skills Loco is peerless. I said before that the J-blogosphere is not what is was back in 07/08...NOW you can see what I was talking about. This site at that time woulda never flew. Loco fought through the bullshit and people just couldn't get what he was saying.
The intro (on the t.v.) by Bun B, reminds of Loco.
"I'm a N.Y, MC, I'm cold on the mic
I say it how I feel and I do it how I like
I write what I see, what I do, and what I know
And keep it one hundred off top from the do'
Now whether at a show, in the booth, or on the streetNo matter where I go and no matter who I meet..."
I gotta say big thanks!!!
@Loco, for inspiring me and letting me grow in your comment section. I found out how hard it is to be hands off and let the masses teach the classes as recently as the "Child Porn" post. I actually lost my cool and banned 2 peeps until coming to my senses. "Don't play with fire if your scared of getting burned"...lesson learned. Letting out the darkness feels good at first and then it's a burden watching as so many "miss" the real point. Elation...quickly followed by frustration. Everyone is listening but no one can hear me.
@Corrine, besides being luscious and outspoken and a fellow School owner, your also the person who's site has directed the most traffic towards my site. I never imagined that would be the case? You got "juice" whether you realize it or not and it's an unexpected bonus cuz reading your posts is fun enough...receiving a buncha traffic from you...I assume some people will be linking to you and commenting even more than now if they are into exposing themselves to a large audience. Aussie women have had good effects on my life on several occasions :) Thank you gorgeous!!
@Rinkat for being my only commenter for a while. When your starting it seems like your talking to yourself....thanks for making that feeling go away :) I said it b4 but since I'm not gonna go back to this topic I just wanted to say thanks again. ;)
@Salaryman for being perhaps the only person who has always got the jokes. You never missed anything and your from the "way back" so you know and have read more from me than maybe anyone.
@myblogroll, I will ALWAYS make sure I drop a comment whenever you drop a post. I can guarantee that! You girls and guys are my Twitter,Facebook,Followers all rolled into one!!
I gotta say a BIG ..
"Aaaaah ha ha ha ha haaaa!!!!!"
Fuck Spoons and Strawberries and other Budgets and all the other Contaminated ass sucking bloggers!! You middle level superficial absolutely uninfuckingspiring relics of the "old School J-Web" You keep making posts like this possible because you are the alternative.........thank you for being you!!
Buncha stumbling fuckers....I'm laughing about like this at you right now.
(sarcastic hand clap)
Oddz N' Endz
Q) You woulda been more impressive if you had shown more class.
A) Oh yeah...I'm always trying to make others feel good. Git the fuck away from me.
Q) It's not all about the #'s you know. Some people just want to express themselves.
A) Yeah...and size doesn't matter too...that's what small dicked people say to make themselves feel better or bloggers that are stuck in perpetual nada cuz their life is boring as fuck or they wanna keep their privacy or blah blah blah...turn off the comments...delete the site and stop jamming up the web with mind numbingly boring observations of a boring life.
Q) Why the rage? It's just a fuckin blog dude.
A) I wanna ask "where's the rage"? this is the net. You can't say what is inside cuz your afraid of being judged and rejected? Your missing the point. Ya'll feel angry too but you muffle yourselves so much so often you don't even realize your not you anymore. Your a fucking shell...a husk...a broken washed up walking cautionary tale of what happens when you worry about what others think about you instead of just being yourself and accepting that "that" will be attractive to some and not to others....fuck the "others"...they can suck my dick till they fucking die!!.
Thanks to the following people who took the time to comment on the previous post
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